coz I kept forgetting to update.. here's a long blog.

Copy from my xanga, this happened about the 17th..:

So.. I guess you could say I'm fucking confused. And depressed. And feel like a complete failure. Which has me on the verge of crying. And not knowing what it means. Here's the deal: I handed in what I thought my poetry essay that I spend obnoxious amounts of time on, excited to get at least a B or something. Yeah... Well when he handed it back, all I saw was the "Let's Talk" on the top and then I flipped though and they're weren't many comments so I thought it was something small. So I went up to him after class and I asked what he wanted to talk about and he said to meet him in his office. Ok, whatever. I should have known something bad was going down. So after French I went to his office and sat down and he asked if I used sources. Well, of course I did, so I was like "Yeah, a couple, just for reference" and then he processed to tell me that I had plagiarized. I was like WHAT? No, I didn't unless.. *looks at paper* SHIT. It was the wrong one. You see, my writing process uses random shit and then compiles it all together in an awesome paper, which means lots of rough drafts are chilling on my computer. And I accidently printed the rough draft which looks similar to the final copy, thinking it was the good version. But.. it wasn't.. So he hands me this piece of paper acknowledging that I failed the course and asks me to read and sign it. I was dazed like WHATWHYDIDTHISHAPPEN but tried to explain it was the rough copy but he said "Well, what you handed in is what you handed in, I'm sorry." And basically all I could say was "Ok?" and I signed the paper and left. So here's where I got confused: Can I do nothing else to fix it? Do I even need to come to class anymore? REALLYYYY DAIVD KRAMER?! Can I rewrite it? How do I retake classes? WHAT IF I GET HIM AGAIN?!?!! I wanna ask him if there is ANY possible way to redo or hand my final copy in but I don't think he'll do it. Plus I'm feeling sad, bitchy, and confused. And I don't even know where to begin on that letter. Or do it in person? I dunno. I'm a mess. I need the Doctor.

Update: Basically, even if I didn't mean to plagiarize, the act of handing in paper that did means it's still a felony. The Judicial Board guy I emailed about the whole situation told me we could bring it to the "court" to fight it but I figured if I can't prove it was done before the due date (I edited it on the Monday when I got back, so that was out of the question) I thought "Well, that's kinda pointless.." I'm gonna meet with my advisor and ask if I should be going to this class (my prof said it was up to me, but what's the point of doing work if I'm just gonna fail?). And I'm on academic probation till the end of the year. Which means I can't fail. Ever. Till the end of year. No worries on that..

So yah, that's what's going on right now. I'm relatively cool with the situation, except for the fact that I hatehatehate failing.. The fact that I plagerized doesn't go on the final transcript, only the F does. I guess I can just say it was a bad class and I'm a first year freshman.. stuff like that.

Sigh. Whatever. I'm done with that class. Really. I didn't hate the guy, but he wasn't the most interesting class ever. There is the really hot guy, Max that was in it.. Oh I shall miss him.

My other classes are fine, I can finally focus on French and Psych, because those are my two hardest classes. Well, not hard.. just a lot of work..

Moving on, the weekend before Thanksgiving our whole crew had a get-together. We played Celebrities, ordered food, drew our Secret Santa and talked. It was a good time. After Hinzy and Brandie went to see Twilight, Mara, Christina, Chris, Geoff, and I went to Chris and Geoff's room and made warm delights and listened to Christmas music. It made me want the Doctor. Coz the best thing about Christmas is definitely the Christmas special.

Yah. It looks amazing.

So Thanksgiving Break was nice. Mom came up on Friday and we got my new lamp together and checked into her hotel.. Where there was totally two beds a flat screen TV. I needed TV. I don't have one up here, the only one I watch is the one in the lunge which gets like 5 channels, 3 of them are fuzzy and hard to see. It's reaaalllyy annoying. So needless to say I don't watch TV much up here, and what I do watch is mostly all online. Luckily, I am a master of online TV watching so it's not too bad. But you don't know how empowering channel surfing and cable is. It's amazing guys. Really. After we checked into the hotel, we came back to the dorms to pick up my friend Chris from Colorado (who was going home with us, to his great aunt and uncle in Springfield, which is really close). So while Chris was getting his hair cut, me and mommy went to browse the stores. I got a scarf, hat, and cool gloves. And I was very warm and happy. And fashionable. After Chris was done, we went a few more stores, mostly in the used book shop and Ten Thousand Villages. After that, we went to Lost Dog and had ourselves a glorious dinner. I had a Tofu Southwest.. something or other. Basically corn, beans, southwestren seasoning, all that good stuff. After dinner, me and mom shared a pear and berry crumble. It was really good.. like everything at Lost Dog.

So we got home around 4, after dropping off Julie Orlando and Chris at his great aunt and uncle's and having a chat with them. Pretty much right when I got home K-bo and Maeve picked me up and we went to Shogun where we sat and ate chinese and japanese food for a good 2 hours. After dropping off Maeve, me and K-bo went to see Twilight. It was actually pretty good. Except I don't like Robert Pattinson.. not attractive to me and I saw an interview with him.. and he's not really that nice.. Soo.. yeah. We basically made fun of a lot of it. Otherwise, it was pretty good in the movie department. On Sunday, I sat and watched tv.. mostly the Hallmark channel.. coz they have the best holiday movies ever. On Tuesday, I went with Kim to see Quantum of Solace. Yah, it was awesome. Daniel Craig is hotttttt. On Wednesday Kim and K-bo came over and we made green cupcakes with green icing. Coz green was the only colour they had at Superfresh. On Turkey Day, my grandpa came over and we had a good thanksgiving meal. I had a tofu burger, stuffing, potatoes, cranberries, and green beans. Not to metion as well, the pumpkin pie that I helped to make.

On Friday, the whole familiy went to buy toys for underprivliged kids for an origaniztion we had at chruch and on Saturday, me and dad watched Get Smart. me and mom watched The Diving Bell and the Butterfly (intense and hard to watch, it was really good though), and all of us watched Indy and The Aliens.. I mean.. the crystal skull..

Sunday I came back, and now I really had no want to work. Like.. at all...